Semi-comatose

Once again, the medical terminology becomes part of our vocabulary. We believe Ed is in the stage known as semi-comatose. The hospice nurse says he may be hearing our voices and may even recognize them, but he is probably not processing what we are saying. His eyelids are half-shut, and his eyes are glazed and unfocused. He looks like he is sleeping non-stop, but he does wince when we try to move him to a different position so he must still feel pain. Speaking to him now draws no response. His breathing was very shallow this morning, but this afternoon after caregiver Nicole gave him a partial bath and we re-positioned him, his breathing became deeper again. The hospice nurse is surprised that he is still with us. She described his state now as being half-way down a tunnel, and he is slowly making his way to the end of it. The hospice chaplain called today and said the team had discussed Ed and us today and agreed that this happened very fast--yet often I feel like this is dragging on needlessly, especially if there's a chance he is suffering. Nevertheless, I set my alarm to give him pain medication every 4 hours through the night, and Melissa has been good with giving me timely reminders about what I need to do for him during the day--administering the few meds, changing the water in his oxygen concentrator, even updating the blog. Judi provided another delicious supper today. We are a crew of four again tonight--me, Melissa, Sherry, and Debbie.